Gigigigigigigig!!

Well, actually we were ropey as all hell. Under-rehearsed, unready, and in too small a space. That said, we carried it off, had an encore and lots of happy people at the end, including one biker who insisted I sign his copies of our demo...!

We started the set with a version of 51st State - and I'm adamant now that Stef was playing the wrong chords. However I ghosted over the back of his playing/singing, and we got through it. We both forgot the words to Moonfriend (how embarassing) and could have done a better version of Sumfin.

The rest of the band came on, and, despite a really badly tuned bass, they made the sound a lot better. By the end we were steaming in style and thoroughly enjoying ourselves. I wore the dress I last wore at the Man on the Moon gig, the one that's really too big for me, and subsequently spent most of the night teasing people with it, 'will the top slip down, will we see the bra...?' ;-)

Either way, we finished with Silly Thing, which went down so well we had to come back on and do D'You Believe. CDs went like hot cakes, and we made a whole £1:80... Hmm, still it all goes in the book.

Came home and decided not to go to the party up the road, and so fell, exhausted, into bed.

Biggest thanx go to Subsist and Miss Daisy for support, Erik and Jamie for the sound desk (we'll make a sound engineer out of you yet my dear! ;-) ) and the Sudbury and Bury crews for coming down to see us. :-)

Other things

Everyone has been going mad the past few days. I guess that's what the word 'Lunatic' is all about. Its spring, and people are getting restless, tired of their old positions, straining for something new. And of course the tension mounts in the Middle East, and we are almost certain to go to war now.

Back in the office, things are constantly crazy. People are not listening, are going mental the moment something doesn't go to their plans. And of course we bear the brunt of their anger.
I'm going to start looking again. Maybe not as desperately as I was when I was at the Foundation, but certainly I'll apply for anything that looks interesting. I heard on the radio a couple of weeks ago that the Harlow equivalent of Q103 were looking for drivers for their 'Black Thunder' cars. If only that had been here in Cambridge. I wouldn't go for the Harlow one - I thought about it, but they'll be looking for someone a lot more 'mainstream' and of course I don't really relish the thought of commuting down to Harlow every day, even if the word means 'Temple Hill' in Anglo-Saxon. If only they wanted the same for here in Cambridge. No matter its not a great radio station, I'm sure I'd still enjoy it. Its being in an office I can't stand anymore. I used to be able to cope with it. Things have changed. I'm not the same person, although I keep forgetting. I managed to get out in the car yesterday, and it was so gorgeous driving along the road, the trees in full blossom and the sun streaming down. Heavenly. I need to feel the air on my face, the wind in my hair. I always seem to miss spring due to being stuck inside somewhere or other.

The moon on the way to Bury last night was one of the most incredible things I have ever seen. It has never been so low or so clear and bright as it was then I'm sure. I wrote about it in the car, and about the way I have been feeling for so long now...

"Emotion is just that, energy in motion
And I wouldn't change the way I feel for anything
Because, although I feel the sadness deeper
I also feel the happiness and awe more intensely
But I do need to allow that energy motion
I need to feel it, no matter what it is
And so I ask only for your patience
Grace, and understanding
Once the sadness is past
I will feel the joy once again
And as the fullest, brightest moon I have ever seen rises
I realise the seaon has started
And we are all feeling a little restless

Merry Meet my Lady Luna."

Awww!

Erik just brought me pink roses home!! :-)
They're the most gorgeous colour, really vibrant. They're sat next to the white ones he got me for the Portland gig (I dried them) and they look lovely. :-)

*Fluff*