Oh gods...

[alixandrea]

I feel so despondent today. Work is just awful, even though I wasn't even _there_ today, but training in Leicester. The door-to-door, persuading people to sign up to donate to the Wildlife Trust job that I applied for, and got, was also supposed to have a training day today. I emailed the guy to tell him I couldn't make it several days ago, and only just got a message on my VMX today, asking me to call him back. Idiot. I was hoping to do the job a couple of evenings a week, seeing if I could make a living out of it, and if so then I could quit work and do it full time, in my own time, no pressure. But now I don't know. :-( I also got a phone call from Culpeppers who are looking for an Assistant Manager right now, but also could not take the call as I was at work. Too many people to call, but at least some possibility that something could be salvaged. At work when we got back, it was nothing but moaning from the manageress, and having a go for not being 'team spirited'. Maybe if she just _asked_ us if we were OK, and whether we were having any problems at all, she might realise just _why_ we're all like that right now.

Anyway, praccy with my band tomorrow night, praccy with Rory in Streatham (sp?) next Wednesday, but no praccy on Sunday, which means Erik and I have a whole 3 days to go kitten-huntin' in. :-) I think a kitten is exactly what I need right now, something I can train, bring up, and generally look after. Also, I started on a plan for what I want to achieve by this time next year. Its been almost a year since I finished my HND, and I'm getting no-where. Time to put my qualifications into action methinks, but slowly over the next few months to start with...