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Jun. 11th, 2003
Oh really...?
Jun. 11th, 2003 07:12 pm*Raises eyebrow* Well, its funny what you find when you follow a random link to something you're just curious about. I am the proverbial cat. I think my answer is, well don't bother coming on Saturday, and stay in with Oasis until your brain turns to glue and runs out your ears. I won't care...
( The long awaited Fair review )
So that was Saturday...
( Birthday no. 2 )
Monday was work again, but a rather lovely meal cooked by my darling boyfriend. I feel a little more at ease at work right now, following a weekly review that ended with me sobbing in my manager's office last week. I feel like less is being expected of me, people are kinder and generally things are a little easier to cope with. Its still not ideal but it'll do until my evil plan is hatched... ;-)
The meal...
Spring rolls in sweet chilli and lychee sauce.
Thai tuna patties
fresh thick noodles in a chilli and veg stir fry.
Truly, truly yummy, and enough was left over for lunch the next day too! We also had a bottle of very lovely wine, although no cheeses (we were stuffed by the end anyway...!)
Tuesday
Work
Rehearsal (including a run-through of our entire set and multiple repeats of new songs to get them right.)
The Calling (to distribute flyers mainly...)
I actually quite enjoyed myself at The Calling, and danced like a loon to a lot of songs (including the inevitable NMA track, once again played just as I arrived!) Thanx go very much to Zotz for all his time and effort helping to keep the club going, and for balancing the music whenever and wherever possible. I'm going to miss you lots.
Tired, drunk and irritable by the time I got home, but got some sleep at least, which is probably just as well. Mum sent the cards from her place up to me, and I opened them at lunchtime. Bad move. I've never read such downright manipulative bullshit in my life, and all it was was one sentence. What's the matter, did she leave you? Can you imagine that? Of all the people to fuck me over just because you can't fuck me.
Go to hell. And take your parents with you.
I want a recording done, soon...
And now I'm tired and emotional, and not up to organising anything, and being asked to add stuff to the website when I don't really have enough concrete details to do so and I'm so tired and I can't really talk about being tired when I haven't really put that much effort in at all, and I want a bath but there's no hot water and...
Fuck it. I think I may even watch some TV...
( The long awaited Fair review )
So that was Saturday...
( Birthday no. 2 )
Monday was work again, but a rather lovely meal cooked by my darling boyfriend. I feel a little more at ease at work right now, following a weekly review that ended with me sobbing in my manager's office last week. I feel like less is being expected of me, people are kinder and generally things are a little easier to cope with. Its still not ideal but it'll do until my evil plan is hatched... ;-)
The meal...
Spring rolls in sweet chilli and lychee sauce.
Thai tuna patties
fresh thick noodles in a chilli and veg stir fry.
Truly, truly yummy, and enough was left over for lunch the next day too! We also had a bottle of very lovely wine, although no cheeses (we were stuffed by the end anyway...!)
Tuesday
Work
Rehearsal (including a run-through of our entire set and multiple repeats of new songs to get them right.)
The Calling (to distribute flyers mainly...)
I actually quite enjoyed myself at The Calling, and danced like a loon to a lot of songs (including the inevitable NMA track, once again played just as I arrived!) Thanx go very much to Zotz for all his time and effort helping to keep the club going, and for balancing the music whenever and wherever possible. I'm going to miss you lots.
Tired, drunk and irritable by the time I got home, but got some sleep at least, which is probably just as well. Mum sent the cards from her place up to me, and I opened them at lunchtime. Bad move. I've never read such downright manipulative bullshit in my life, and all it was was one sentence. What's the matter, did she leave you? Can you imagine that? Of all the people to fuck me over just because you can't fuck me.
Go to hell. And take your parents with you.
I want a recording done, soon...
And now I'm tired and emotional, and not up to organising anything, and being asked to add stuff to the website when I don't really have enough concrete details to do so and I'm so tired and I can't really talk about being tired when I haven't really put that much effort in at all, and I want a bath but there's no hot water and...
Fuck it. I think I may even watch some TV...
Finally...
Jun. 11th, 2003 10:11 pmMy interview, courtesy of Kitty...
1.) Would you ever consider living in a country other than Britain. If yes, which one, if no, why not?
When I was younger I wanted to live in America. The hugeness of it was awe-inspiring, and I would still like to tour all of it. I've considered New Zealand and more recently Aus, but at the end of the day here is where all the people who are dear to me are, here is where my band is, and here is where I'm likely to remain. I would like to move to Scotland one day, the Highlands somewhere remote. But only after I've made my fortune...
I do want to tour most of the world...
2.) Which album by a favourite artist do you wish had never been recorded, and why?
Actually, I don't think I regret any of the music by my favourite artists. I regret the loss of Jimmy Steinman's physical beauty, I regret Metallica's current attitude to the new form of tape-swapping that made them famous in the first place. I regret the death of Freddie Mercury. But I can't think of anything I know of that I don't like, although this may just be because I'm behind the times with most of my music. I do wish that Steinman had got more recognition for 'Bad For Good' and 'Original Sin'...
3.) Describe what your personal version of Heaven and Hell would be like, given that they existed.
Hmm, heaven would be where I'm not afraid of my past or my future anymore, where I never felt ill or depressed, and where I could spend every day doing whatever I liked knowing that it wasn't hurting anyone, and that I would do it, and would want to do it. Hell would be much like my life now, except that the friends and family I have left would be totally against me, would hate me utterly. There would be no Erik, no band, and I would be stuck back at the charity shop with all the stress of the worst customers we have where I work now. I would know only failure, only fear and depression, and every time I walked out my door there would be machinery in water to cross before I could get anywhere...
4.) What is your ideal relationship configuration. Have you ever had a relationship that was similar to it?
This is a hard one to answer. I don't know TBPH. The relationships I'm in are usually right for me at the time, and this is obviously subject to change. So when I was poly, that was just right for me at that time, and each of my bois filled a particular role. Now I'm in a monogamous relationship I'm in need of that security and trust and the absolute love of one person, to be returned absolutely.
5.) If you could change one aspect of your body, what would it be?
Either I would have bigger breasts or a smaller belly (lower abs). Psychologically, I'd like to be heathly and totally free of any mental illness... I'd also like my hair to be naturally the colour it was last year...
1.) Would you ever consider living in a country other than Britain. If yes, which one, if no, why not?
When I was younger I wanted to live in America. The hugeness of it was awe-inspiring, and I would still like to tour all of it. I've considered New Zealand and more recently Aus, but at the end of the day here is where all the people who are dear to me are, here is where my band is, and here is where I'm likely to remain. I would like to move to Scotland one day, the Highlands somewhere remote. But only after I've made my fortune...
I do want to tour most of the world...
2.) Which album by a favourite artist do you wish had never been recorded, and why?
Actually, I don't think I regret any of the music by my favourite artists. I regret the loss of Jimmy Steinman's physical beauty, I regret Metallica's current attitude to the new form of tape-swapping that made them famous in the first place. I regret the death of Freddie Mercury. But I can't think of anything I know of that I don't like, although this may just be because I'm behind the times with most of my music. I do wish that Steinman had got more recognition for 'Bad For Good' and 'Original Sin'...
3.) Describe what your personal version of Heaven and Hell would be like, given that they existed.
Hmm, heaven would be where I'm not afraid of my past or my future anymore, where I never felt ill or depressed, and where I could spend every day doing whatever I liked knowing that it wasn't hurting anyone, and that I would do it, and would want to do it. Hell would be much like my life now, except that the friends and family I have left would be totally against me, would hate me utterly. There would be no Erik, no band, and I would be stuck back at the charity shop with all the stress of the worst customers we have where I work now. I would know only failure, only fear and depression, and every time I walked out my door there would be machinery in water to cross before I could get anywhere...
4.) What is your ideal relationship configuration. Have you ever had a relationship that was similar to it?
This is a hard one to answer. I don't know TBPH. The relationships I'm in are usually right for me at the time, and this is obviously subject to change. So when I was poly, that was just right for me at that time, and each of my bois filled a particular role. Now I'm in a monogamous relationship I'm in need of that security and trust and the absolute love of one person, to be returned absolutely.
5.) If you could change one aspect of your body, what would it be?
Either I would have bigger breasts or a smaller belly (lower abs). Psychologically, I'd like to be heathly and totally free of any mental illness... I'd also like my hair to be naturally the colour it was last year...
